sweet as a eucalyptus, terrible as a tempest
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i said i was in, but that might have been too hasty a call.
last week i received an email from the director that they were finalizing their staffing plans and i was one of those seriously being considered.
to say that i was puzzled was an understatement. but outwardly i only muttered a ..what?
did i misunderstand the chairman? though she didn't explicitly say that i was in, she told me that the only reason i reached her stage was that she wanted to know the people working in the company. and she told me to wait for a call for the next procedures. by that i thought she meant, you know, negos and stuff.
i thought i was already out of the woods but i was wrong. and i don't know how i could've misunderstood, because paranoid me always, always interprets on the pessimistic side.
and this week marks the final wait.
i think i'm not going to make it. i'll extend my hands to catch my broken heart.
